never a last..............

This is dedicated to my late grandma who passed away on 11 april 2011 at the age of 88.... She was a great lady with great determination.....This is for something i would like to dedicate to my beloved grandmother...... I want her to know that i will always love her and cherish every moment we had once had together............ i love you grandma......

i know it wasn't meant to
be written;
for it will hurt too much;
i am afraid to tell the world how great
you were once;
too scared that i will have to
stop my words and speak no more;
and resist writing another poem;
for i do not want to shed anymore tears.....

memories of you "haunt" me
every second of the day;
just like i wanted to;
just like i wished for;
i regretted the moments i toyed around with time;
not being there with you was my biggest mistake
my biggest sin....

i was going to tell you
how deep i had loved you;
how my heart ache to hold you close;
no... i never had the chance;
you went away;
you left me with only memories of you....

this way, i will always have you
and you will always have me;
i gave you my heart and
you gave me yours;
my heart is all yours;
all yours to keep.......

yes, i have moved on;
but at times
tears still stream down my cheeks
whenever memories of you came into my mind;
moving on doesn't mean
i have to say good bye;
doesn't mean i have to bid farewell;
i will always love you
but with a different way;
in the center part of my heart.....

i promise you;
there will never be a last poem for you;
my last poem will stay unwritten here;
i will write in in the clouds
and let the wind whisper it to you;
i will write in in my heart
and let my sincerity bring it to you;
lastly i will write in my every prayers
and let God read it to you.......

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU GRANDMA (ah mah)

diari seorang guru.......

20.3.2011 - 14.4.2011
SEKOLAH KEBANGSAAN DEMIT 2

Kerjaya sebagai seorang guru sememangnya bukan semudah yang disangka. Praktikal selama sebulan sebagai seorang guru mata pelajaran Pendidikan Muzik di Sekolah Kebangsaan Demit 2 banyak memberi pendedahan kepada saya tentang realiti dunia pendidikan. Seperti lazimnya memang lumrah hidup, ada pengalaman manis dan pahit, kenangan indah dan yang tak seberapa indah, kisah suka dan duka serta memori yang menggamit perasaan.

Disini saya ingin selitkan beberapa keping gambar kenangan saya bersama warga pelajar sekolah ini.... (semuanya comel-comel).... hehehe

ini pelajar kelas 2C

ini kumpulan Nasyid sekolah!

wajah-wajah ceria kelas 1C

warga aktif kelas 3C

Setakat ini sahaja gambar-gambar yang boleh saya kongsi bersama dengan anda. hehe....... Sebenarnya ada banyak lagi gambar yang ingin saya kongsi bersama anda, tetapi saya rasa, kepingan-kepingan gambar kenangan ini sudah mencukupi...............

-erkkkkkkkk...... rasa macam kali pertama saya menggunakan bahasa baku dalam penulisan saya di blog ini..... kihkihkih........ MARILAH BERSAMA-SAMA KITA MEMARTABATKAN BAHASA MELAYU! hihi

that man (ost of secret garden)

taking some time out of my busy schedule to BLOG! i have been listening or more appropriate "hooked" to this song for a very long time. let us have a look at the beautiful lyrics this song has to offer!

there is a man who loves you,
he loves you with all his heart,
he follows you around like a shadow everyday,
he smiles to the world and is hurting inside,
just how much longer should he look at you alone and continue this overwhelming love, this all consuming love?
how much longer will it take for you to love him?
just come a little closer to him,
he wants you with him, but you pull away,
that man is in pain whenever he is with you because he loves you...

that man has learned how to smile
because he has always been guarded,
that man's mind is full of sadness
because he has to keep his feelings to himself,
that man loves you because you are both the same,
you are both fools, a pair of fools,
can you hold him one more time before he go?
he wants to be loved by you,
his heart cries for you, always for you, but you do not hear and yet that man still waits for you.

Do you know i am the man?
you are pretending not to, are you?
you may not know because you are a fool.
just how much longer do i have to gaze at you alone with this overwhelming love, this crippling-like love
how much longer will it take you to love me?
just come a little closer to me
don't run away, stay here with me
that man is in pain whenever he is with you
BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU...................